Sex, politics, religion - and music
Jack Body
Massey University Composer Address 1999
I was born in a small New Zealand country town, the last of four children
and the only son. My sisters were considerably older than me, and so I
had a rather solitary childhood. I amused myself by making things. I always
remember trying to keep out of my mother's way, because as soon as she
saw me she'd find some useful household chore for me to do. Since my sisters
had all had piano lessons I, too, wanted to learn. Although it was obvious
I was never destined to become a concert pianist I was fascinated by music,
not only as sound that could be played and listened to, but also by the
notation, a kind of secret symbolic language. I remember the sense of
wonder I felt when I was given my first volume of Beethoven sonatas, which
contained a very romanticised portrait of the composer as a frontispiece.
So this is what a composer looked like, wild haired and with a surly glare!
I clutched the book close and stroked its cover. (Years later I had a
student who told me that when he got hold of his first Beethoven score,
he ate the pages. Although I didn't quite believe him, I understood his
feeling! We had fallen in love with the idea of being a composer.)
I think I must have been a fairly characterless child, a seen-but-not-heard
kind of child. I seldom argued, or spoke out, but I definitely had a stubborn
streak. I always say, "Yes, Mum", and then go off and do whatever
it was I had in mind. I was an individualist, but I also avoided confrontation.
I can't see the rhyme or reason of astrology but the truth is I am a classic
Libran. (Years later, when I went to live in Java for two years, I felt
very at ease in this culture where one never expresses oneself directly
or emphatically, and where raised voices and physical confrontation are
considered demeaning.
In New Zealand emotional inhibition is a national malady. Men, particularly,
are discouraged from giving expression to their emotions, except perhaps
their feelings of violence and aggression, which is such an essential
ingredient in the game of rugby. But tears? - these definitely had to
be suppressed. I remember struggling to keep my weeping silent, as I sobbed
myself to sleep during the first months at boarding school, the result
of which I seem to have altogether lost the capacity to cry freely, without
restraint.
In many ways I am grateful for having been sent to boarding school, for
although the separation from the family fold seemed sudden and brutal
at the time, it forced on me a sense of independence, something than many
adolescents have a long struggle to achieve. I was alone. I had to "create
myself". I was a very average sort of scholar, but my particular
passions - painting and music - marked me as being "different"
from my school mates. I was not inadequate in athletics, but I chose to
specialise in gymnastics, which I could work at alone, by myself, in my
own time. I had an intense hatred of the compulsory military training
which we were subjected to once a week.
In my "passive resistance" to the pressures to conform that
I sensed around me, I started to develop little excentricities. I would
suddenly say things that had no connection to what was being discussed.
I would impose a code of silence on myself for a day or two at a time.
I don't believe I was ever victimised - on the contrary I achieved a certain
notoriety that was in fact a little reassuring for my self-image as an
individualist. I was given the nick-name "spaz", short for spastic.
As the school years progressed I had greater freedom to develop my excentricities.
I became a night owl. I loved to practice the organ at all hours, alone
in the chapel with its enveloping darkness, or to paint at night in the
art room, or even, as a house prefect, to sit in my study, through to
the early hours mesmerised by the glowing coil of a heater, my mind in
a stupor. I didn't understand what I was doing or why. With no access
(probably fortunately) to alcohol or drugs I think I was trying, through
sleep deprivation, to achieve a state of altered consciousness, a world
of unfettered imagination. (I remember reading years later about an ancient
Chinese artist who, having completed a large landscape painting, put down
his brush and disappeared into his creation.) My cultivated excentricities
were perhaps partly a result of my romantic notion of what it is to be
an artist. But I think I was also driven by a genuine need to escape convention.
I wrote a poem about it that was published in the school journal. No great
literary masterpiece, but I find it an illuminating window back onto my
adolescent self.
The Madman (1962)
O, what fools are these
to have their form of logic
Dictated to them by their predecessors!
Consider me,
a rational being
living in my self-created heaven
while these animals subsist
forever smothered by conformity.
Why do these idiots prattle "facts"?
Can man ever prove a truth,
disprove a dream?
Why then, in this damned world of lunatics
am I, sane, condemned, because I choose
to live as my divine perception rules,
because I choose
to live?
Who would stand to prove me wrong?
Civilisation, its culture and its ethics
have grown from seed, with
crooked, twisted branches,
palsied roots and poisoned berries -
Your life is illusionary,
Your knowledge fallacious,
Your world a misconception.
My world is a truth,
I live by my beliefs,
Besides -
Who would stand to proof me wrong?
Jack Body, composer, ethnomusicologist, teacher, music publisher, record
producer, and photographer, born in Te Aroha and educated both here and
Europe, is presently an associate professor at Victoria University. His
extensive range of compositions includes solo, chamber and orchestral
music, music for dance, theatre and film, and electroacoustic music. Jack
Body became fascinated with Asian music after an overland journey in 1971
and his subsequent absorption of musical styles outside the Western classical
tradition has given him the reputation of a composer who has greatly extended
the resources of New Zealand music. Body is a composer of graphic richness
and of extreme subtlety and sophistication. Suara: Environmental Music
from Java (1978-90/1993), a tape-cycle, Sarajevo (1995)
for piano, and Melodies for Orchestra (1983), for example, display
technical complexities which establish him as one of our major contemporary
artists. He is also noted for the unprecedented vividness with which,
in such works as Love Sonnets of Michelangelo (1982), Pulse
(1995), and Poems of Solitary Delights (1985), he expresses a
sensuously apprehended world. In Turtle Time (1968), a threshold
piece about death, the journey out of mortality into ghosthood is presently
to be made: the mixture of salutation and farewell sounded in the manipulation
of clock-like chimes and a somnambulant drift is the perfect equivalent
for the balance between natural grief and the recognition of necessity
which pervades Russell Haley's text. In Carol to Saint Stephen
(1975), based on the medieval carol "Eya, Martyr Stephane",
the reflexiveness of the form is the right correlative for the reflexiveness
of the feeling. As the music proceeds, exhortation becomes self-lamentation;
the angelic register of the dying martyr's blessing on those who stone
him, collapses the distance between man's recognition of his own negative
potential and a flash of beatitude which comes with the awareness of life
in death and death in life. Jack Body's music never loses touch with the
suffered world and it is the undermusic of just such knowledge that makes
works like Little Elegies (1985) for orchestra - most known in
form that underlays a visual track of news footage depicting atrocities
and other "inhumanities" - the common, unrarified expression
of a disappointment that is beyond self-pity. The state of things at the
end of the opera Alley (1997), finds Rewi Alley an old man making
no secret of the prejudice and contrariness at the centre of his nature,
nor shirking the bleakness of that last place in himself. Even so, consolation
can be found in the sensation of spirit not so much projected onward as
brimming over and above the body.
Not all giant trees are broken by the storm
Not all seeds find no soil to strike root
Not all true feelings
Vanish in the desert of man's heart
Not all dreams allow their wings to be clipped
No, not everything ends as you foretold
Body's hybridised musical discourse, melding East and West, serves a purpose whereby each voice can unmask the other. A field recording of rice pounding music ("Kotekan"/Suara) can inform our hearing of, say the first of the Five Melodies (1982) for piano, and the penultimate movement of the cyclic Suara - an old man playing a bamboo jew's harp with choking oversounds ("Music Mulut" (1990)/Suara) - not only underscores the figure of age but prefigures the epilogue, a field recording of pigeons with whistles tied to their tails, winging home at sunset ("Sawangan"/Suara) - a sound which takes in and gives back the signals of a universal solitude.
Robert Hoskins, editor, Massey
University Composer Address series